Aaliyah+Valenzuela

__Untouched__

Here he halted and puffed with gentle touch and vexation. He must have a guilty expectation. The fabric of it, the physical fact, I had always loved. For a moment I was entangled in nothing. Painting nothing black, my limits were new to me.

Continent of sperm in his shag. I wanted to stare into the night. Like fear in reverse. My memory is encircled with weakness. For love would be love of the wrong thing.

Leaving no marks, This is the midst of my life. Some we love, the most loved the best. Now dead and swaying in the shadow of breeze. The falsity is life itself.

__Try__

I try and try with this pain I will cope, but find myself again losing hope. I try to look for the good, but once again alone I stood. I try to wonder if I’ll ever get through all the hurt and pain. Though the thoughts of a good life are there, I now find myself starting to about what was and what well be, for the rest of my life is up to me, not them, not you. It’s my fault the pain I’ve been through. I try to let go and try to say no to the drugs that put me here. So all alone I’ve cried my last tear, learned my lessons fought my fears, stronger now than ever before. I find myself facing a new door. Try to hold on to what was and what could be. Try to let go of the answers you don’t know. Try to act happy so no one will know. We need answers for our question, to solve our problems to get solutions Looking back at all that’s been done and said, I must be lost in my head. I want to go forward but find myself falling back, back into all that’s been done, and now must be done again. Franticly I look for a way out; oh I just want to shout!!!! But don’t loose it now; you’ve came such a long way. The good and the bad decisions that have led up to this day. I realize how I can’t keep looking and holding on to the past, but must live my future. I’ve made my mistakes, my heartaches for what I’ve done. So I’ll let go of what was and try to write the best of what well be, for where I go from here is only up to me.

__From Where I Stand__

From where I stand my life seems to be slippin through my hand and

From where I stand it seems no matter how hard I hold on my life just keeps

moving on, slowly passing my by and there it is again the urge to get High.

From where I stand I don’t feel like I’m living my life but more trying to

keep up with everyone else’s.

From where I stand I now know what I must do to get through these

trials I’ve been fighting through.

From where I stand I know now I must look at my life from your shoes,

for sometimes it’s easier to understand from other points of views. So I’ll

change my point of view take a look at what I’ve been through and I’ll take up

the slack, take my life back. Then it’s in my hand, my life.

This is where I stand……….

Never having been loved means your life will never end because it never started.

Life is what you make it.

There is no such thing as too young to fall in Love, just to immature to handle it.

Some dreams are a lot like reality, you don’t ever want some of them to end.

You weren’t planned, but never unwanted.

Everybody is a lot alike, but far from the same.

The most exhausting thing in life I have discovered is being insincere.

Know me for who I am, not what I am.

Know me for who I am, not what I do.

Sometime I feel like I am sailing alone acrossed a sea of challenges, but then realize I’ll always have my parents and friends to help me get through.

Nobody is perfect; it’s whether your perfect for each other is the question.

You can teach it, but it doesn’t mean you understand it.

To respect others you must first respect yourself.

The first step in finding what you want is knowing who you are.

You always wonder what it would have been like with her, But in reality you wouldn’t give up anything for her.

When you would rather be with a girl than your friends she is the one.

When you’re in Love she shouldn’t be just your friend she should be your best friend.

Nobody can explain Love or even understand it, but when it happens they won’t give it up.

Most days I wish I wouldn’t have met you cause then I wouldn’t know what I missed out on.

You don’t ever stop loving, just stop caring.

Getting hurt in life is like falling down, you have to get back up and try again.

Every new beginning comes from some others beginning end.

Don’t take for granted today what could be gone tomorrow.

I think of falling in Love again, But I wonder will it be a different Love, different then what I felt with her.

__Feel it.__

Did you feel it? Do you remember what it felt like? It was like nothing I’ve ever known all the emotions all at once. __ Regret __ – for not saying what I should of and for taking for granted what we all no longer have.

__Hurt__ - because I know now I can’t just pick up the phone and tell them you Love & miss them.

__ Worry __ - for yourself and others around you for their pain and what they might do.

__ Confusion __ - because your not sure why.

__ Anger __ – because maybe you should of seen it coming.

__ Fear __ - for you’re not sure what it’s going to be like without them.

__ Love __ – for now you know how much they meant to you.

__ Lost __ – for something is missing in your life.

__ Loneliness __ - because they were always there and you could always call them and know they were there for you.

__ Happiness __ – because you always have the memories and the things they taught you.

__ Peace __ – with what has happened and with yourself, for you know they are happy now and forever.

__ Closure __ - for you were a part of someone very special life. And now I ask you?

Did you feel it? Do you remember? It took years, but was over just like that. Did you feel it? Do you remember? Yes!